Love is all we have, the only way that each can help the other

Lately a lot I have been feeling as though I'm stuck under a pile of rocks and I can't get out from underneath it. I've made so many mistakes in the last little while and made so many choices that weren't necessarily good ones. Alright I've made more bad ones then good ones. And the prospect of the bad ones I will make in the future to compensate for the ones I've already made is overwhelming. So I'm putting a stop to it, and I'm turning things around of of now.

I might not have made the best decisions, and there are some things that I do want to change... but hopefully its not too late.

Tomorrow I'm going to get an early start and start working on the things that I need to change.

I don't know if anyone reads this anymore, and I half hope that some people don't. Mostly I just needed to vent tonight. To put into writing what I'm thinking, hopefully it will make it seem more real.

Here I want to say that I don't have too much going for me. But clearly that's completely off base and wrong. I have a lot going for me... just not a lot of that I have made use of. The best thing that I have going for me though is someone who loves me unconditionally. And someone who I know will help me and love me even when I screw up and even when I'm crazy and even when I'm throwing up. And I have to say thanks for that, cause it means more to me then anyone will ever know. And it makes it a lot easier to breathe under the rocks.