Ok - who paused time?

So I never seem to know what to write anymore. I feel like I'm in some perpetual state of indecision and can't take any action until other people make decisions for me.

I'm almost done at UM. I want to start at Starbucks already and know my hours. I need to get a second job or a volunteer job or something to do with my time.

I want to get accepted to college or hell even rejected as long as it helps me decide where I'm going or what I'm doing.

If you're sensing a little bit of frustration with my life then you are probably correct. I hate relying on other people to make decisions.

This being said I suppose I shouldn't feel this much frustration. I am so happy. I have a great new job which I've wanted for awhile. I'm going to have free time! I haven't been rejected by any colleges yet *knocks wood*. I just would feel better having something a bit more productive to do with my time. I'm sure that soon enough I will be complaining that I am too busy. But I like it better that way lol. I know I'm ranting... and if you've made it this far you should get a gold star or something. Leave me a comment and I'll mail you one.