I finally got S-M-R-T!!!!!!!!!!!

You know what I hate about December and the holidays? Its supposed to be a time about family and love and friendship and fun. And it turns into this big stressed-out gift grab. Alright, I know that this is not an original post at all but really I think it needs to be said. Instead of having time to spend time with loved ones we're all busy working extra hard to make money - cause everyone is broke this month and running around doing all the meaningless things you have to do this time of year. I like presents with shiny bows as much as the next person, but I think this year my priorities are a lot different. I would so much rather have time, time to spend with everyone I love. That's what I don't have and what I would like the most. This is just a stupid rant about the commercializaton of Christmas.

But I hate seeing everyone (yes including myself) so stressed about everything at a time of year that is supposed to be about so much more.

I'm hoping that there is an end to my stress.. or at least I might be moving onto more bearable stress. Fingers crossed anyways we'll see how that turns out. See how realistic it is. I sure hope so though.

The way things are going in my life kinda suck. I have so much to be happy about and one thing holding me back from celebrating it. I know, a large part of that is completely my fault - I let it get to me and I put up with it. But that's ending tonight. From this moment on it is not going to get to me anymore. I will be leaving it behind and working on celebrating the things in my life that bring me joy. So thank you everyone for your patience with me. Those who know me know exactly what I am talking about. I refuse to feel badly about things that I should not feel badly about. I refuse to let anything interfere with the good things in my life. All I can hope is that I haven't realized this too late.