Because apparently you can never have too much Borges...

"To fall in love is to create a religion that has a fallible god."

Has not been my best week ever. Well I take that back... if I were looking for material to use in writing a soap opera I would have had a stellar week. Since I gave up the writing dream a few years ago - I could have found a more productive use of my time.

I'm basically playing a waiting game until Saturday when I get to go home. I try not to think about the fact that by then it will be nearly two weeks since my Grandpa's surgery and the first time that I have been able to get home. Mostly because it makes me very angry and very sad. Here is where I say thank you to Taylor, Jenna and Brian who together are making it possible for me to actually get home. You guys rock!!!!!

I basically hate the person I have become lately. I've decided that I need to get out more and stress less. I'm thinking of finding some place to volunteer and finding more stuff to do with my time. I have a lot more time on my hands now that I have dropped some classes so I think I'm going to fill it out. I just feel better about myself when I'm busier and have more to do.

About the quote... now that the post is pretty much done I can actually stop to explain it. Its kind of an apology to everyone - I know that I've been really hard to get along with this week and really needy and probably really annoying. I really appreciate everyone for putting up with me and for being there with me. I know I will be feeling a thousand times better once I get home to see my Grandpa. Three more days and I can stop the inward pacing and insanity that has been driving all of my actions lately. So thanks to everyone who came by to bring me diet coke and hugs, talk to me and make me happy or drive to come and give me hugs and spend time with me. I appreciate it more then you know. And after a weekend home it will be my turn to make it up to you!

Love to everyone.