PLEASE

Do you remember when you were a child, and you were playing cards and for a moment you didn't look at the cards you'd just been dealt - you stopped and you wished so hard to be holding what you wanted in your hand. Even though you knew the cards had already been dealt and you really couldn't change them you still thought for a second that if you wished hard enough you could change it? I feel that way. Do me a favour - when you read this, if anyone reads this, close your eyes and wish with me, pray a little with me. By the time you do I'll probably already know, but on the off chance that its possible...

I'm standing on a threshold of a day that will change my life. I have to ask again, what do you do when all you have is faith in God that what happens is the way it is supposed to go, even when you know that it might not be what you want to happen. At the moment all I have is faith.

If I've learned one thing lately its that the time you are living is all you really have. There is nothing sure about the future. And if you spend all your time worrying about what the future holds you're going to wake up one day to a wasted past. So what's the point of worrying about something that might or might not happen. Truly the world could end the day after tomorrow (with random wolves and everything) and then what? I just want to be able to know that I lived every day for that day - and if the future isn't what you plan for, at least the past, which is all the reality we have, was everything you wanted it to be.