And when you're with me if I close my eyes, There are times I swear I feel like I can fly

I'm better then last night - so this post may be less of a rant and possibly less entertaining. After I posted last night I spent a good two hours in bed trying to decide what I wanted to do. Believe it or not I actually made a decision. And I think that its a good one - it leaves my options open so that I have time to make absolutely certain that this is what I want but also lets me make the changes I want to make.

Since I came here I've been lost and confused. Today for the first time I feel like I have a sense of purpose and direction to what I want to do. I can't wait to get started!

Thanks to everyone I've talked to who has told me to go for what makes me happy. And especially thank you to those that always show me their total faith and belief that I can and should do anything I want to do. You know who you are and hopefully you have some idea of how much it means to me. It wouldn't be the same without you behind me - not sure I'd have stuck it out this long and for sure I wouldn't have the courage to do this. I promise that you're going to be really really proud of me - I will live up to your faith in me!! And I'm going to do it doing something that I like.

I can't believe how much better I feel about everything.

*Counts blessings*
- Friendships and love that I never expected but that have changed my life and bring me so much happiness every day. I've used the word happy so much lately I might have worn it out for the rest of the world.
- The fact that I realized this and gave myself a good kick before it was too late.

And now I'm going to knock wood that this actually works out and haul my ass to bed.