You raise me up to more then I can be

I know its sad - definitely a Josh Groban line but if you went to see him in concert you would understand. That and the song says it all.

I just wanted to say thank-you to someone. I was really really discouraged today and feeling like a bit of a fuck up to be perfectly honest. They however were great and really made me feel a lot better about myself and my life right now. And thanks to them I've decided to try for something that I really wanted and know that I can achieve but was afraid to try before. Its nice knowing that someone has faith in YOU and not in appearances. Sometimes its just what you need to make a bad day a lot better. A lot of hard work and some priorities and I know I can do whatever I want. Not going to spend a lot of time on here spouting off about my goals. If everything goes alright and I get it then there will be plenty of time to tell everyone. And if not then I don't have to eat my own words. JK! But thanks. Meeting you changed so much and I'm gonna make you proud of me!

Even if it means a greatly reduced occurence of Skinny Phat/make your own martini nights. Sigh. But no regrets for the best months of my life. The friends I've made and the memories I have I would not trade for anything cause they're going to be what I remember and what last forever.

I have a lot to be thankful for right now:
1. I've had this conversation with my beautiful wife - when I eventually do graduate I will know that my degree meant something because of the work that I had to put into getting it. I will have earned it for sure and for certain.
2. For my friends who are there and who encourage me and support me through everything. I've needed a lot of that lately and hopefully now things are moving in a different direction. But I know that if not you will still be there for me and it means a lot for me to have that in my life.
3. Finally but definitely not third in my thinking - a ray of hope. Awhile ago I said that the scariest thing was when all you can do is trust God to make the right decision even while knowing it could very well not be the one I want. So today I'm thankful for that little ray of hope. Its not decisive... and who knows when the clouds will return, but its there and that's all that matters.