Well I'm a little afraid of my new living arrangements... work is a little hectic and stressful... boys are stupid throw rocks at them... family things are tense and worried to say the least. Time for a rant in my blog - I think so.

Its been a long time since I posted. Been a long time since I could get my thoughts in enough order to post with any degree of coherence. I think I've decided now that I am going to be alright. Maybe the most that you can actually hope is that you can decide to pull it together and make it through tomorrow. Life is a choice right? Sometimes it just takes me longer to get there then usual.

Thanks to everyone, a few people in particular who know who they are (or should) who have been there for me. Your hugs and shoulders and tag-teaming helped more then you know.

I'm feeling the need to move away from certain things in my life. I shouldn't lie - I'm not really feeling it so much as knowing that I have to. Change is so hard especially when your heart isn't in it. Fuck necessity.

Gawd. This post is going no where fast. Maybe I'm not as coherent as I thought.

Maybe tomorrow will be the day that I wake up and things have started to make sense again. Or maybe I'll just really get tired of my aimless rhetoric and stop posting? It might be doing the world a favour!