Travelling through life one landmark at a time

Sometimes I feel like I'm wandering through my life like an olden day explorer, living to find the next landmark to record. These are the days when I don't feel like life is a moving sidewalk and I'm running a marathon in the wrong direction. Today though was a landmark day. And it got me thinking about the events that mark my life - both the unexpected and the expected ones.

I've had a lot of these days over the summer. And crayoned in on my little map are the things that have changed my life. One phone call, one question, one touch - all of which are really a cumulation of deformed molecules, other silenced questions and countless caresses. As if on the map the ground slowly grows wetter until you're floating in the middle of a lake.

A week ago at this time I was feeling unbearably lonely. That has changed over the course of this week. Sometimes when you hit upon a landmark you feel a sense of deja vu, of overwhelming comfort and familiarity as though in a different lifetime this was home. And for awhile you linger. Of course lingering too long is a mistake, and eventually the white expanse of the unfinished map calls you forward. From the vantage point of this familiar place it is easy for me to picture the next landmark. I know what it will look like, and I know how I will feel when I finally reach it. And I hope that my journey takes me to that place.

Things I am thankful for:
1. faith, hope, love, strength
2. Quiet times with friends who understand my need for these quiet times.
3. Southern Exposure - watch out for the May Sweeps!!