Do over - "We, we who were, we are the same no longer"

Tonight is a night full of nostalgia and comfort. Nostalgia cause I remember a lot. I remember being with someone and being content knowing that it would be the same forever and the comfort and the love and how knowing they knew you and you knew them was all you asked for. Like Garth says - thank God for unanswered prayers. Sure I was wrong but its not wrong to miss that feeling is it? More then anything its a desire to be allowed to love someone cause you know them and you want to. Its more then that though. Its everything that I used to be and definitely turned off for awhile. I just want to be that person again - I was so on top of things and I was so in control of my life. I did not let anyone dictate what I wanted. And I was never so easily thrown by other people's actions.

Not sure where the comfort part came in. Except that I think I might actually be closer to "there" then I have been in awhile. Definitely an eye-opener tonight in terms of what I want and what I don't want. I spent a lot of time not living by my principles and now I am paying for it. And the solution is actually pretty easy. If I follow my instincts and do what I think is right then I'm not going to have to feel this way again. Hurray for being true to yourself and to your heart. In a lot of ways its game over. In more ways its going to be so much better for me. From now on I'm only going to do what feels right to me. And then I won't have regrets. Lesson learned. The Neruda helped for sure.